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hi there all, I'll be away for two and a half month to attend the national service.

hope i will make a lot of friends there and most of all i will enjoy my self there.

wait till you witness my new hair cut after NS.

confession to make...

of all these years i wondered what has gone wrong with me. first i felt i lost something(but don't know what was it) then i convinced myself that if i were to lost something, at the same time i gain some thing too(without knowing what i had gained).

now i finally know what i have been searching for for all these years. it's the thing i gave up long ago, it's friendship. i isolated my self, far beyond the reach of everyone else for a long long time)

well thanks to 5s8, i am freed from isolation.they gave me the sweetness of friendship that i have never tasted before.

now that i have regained the friendship (that i lost and gave up before), i have learnt to cherish it always, hold it tightly and never gave up.

there are no special thanks to anyone in 5s8/2008, because you all are very special.special and precious indeed to me. thanks all of you for accompany me along the journey of 2009. love you all.

lastly i wanted to say i am very lucky meeting you and be with you.
and thanks rhu yann for the advice and the lonely and lost most moments you accompanied me.

again my views have broaden, i learnt that there are more global language besides Chinese and English, like french.

i decide to learn more language after my spm exam.

more language = more knowledge = more chance = brighter prospect.

message to myself

this is for the future me,

in case you feel lost in the future, try to remember that once in the past you felt lost during your spm exam year, confused between ' give it your best and hope for the best' and 'results are everything , no results your are nothing'.

at this eleventh hour, where by there is no much time left to prepare for the exam, should you endeavour more and accept what ever the outcome that maybe your chance to be 'success' or thinking that there is not enough time left to prepare to get a perfect result and give up.

life is not only about results, the experience you get is far more valuable and meaningful...

yeh !!! today's the last day for me taking eam in jit sin as a jitsin student. hahaha...

i recall...many things had happned in my school life...and i learnt a lot of my self and others.
i was a problematic person for i was easily influence by my friends and most of all was my parents.especially my father.

he had influence me in many ways. some may be good but all i remambered was the bads. i wont forget the sorrow he gaved. he is very selfish all he thinks about is himself and his 'buddies'.

fortunately i haved grew up, i am 17 this year. i will work hard and study hard and i will be a better husband and a better father than him.

i always thought all i have for my high school life is regrets.now have changed my view because i finally met a friend ,and not just any friend, he is a kind of friend that can share thoughts and every thing, he respect me and i respect him too.

i will never give up any thing that i think its very precious to me...

thanks god!!!thanks Buddha!!!

i wish to have a shadow that heals.

you are very lucky...

reaching 21st century, 6.6billion soles living on earth 4.4 is enduring poverty: starvation.

there is not much i can do but appreciate, appreciate what i have now.

in this world of every thing is possible, we have many kinds of people around. good ones, bad ones, pretty ones, ugly ones, normal ones and abnormal ones... unluckily all those distinction were created by man themselves..

actually everyone is special, despite being special most of them prefer to be normal and they and wanted other to be normal too or they would alienate him for being different .

well lets just not be too stress about this ,because everyone has his own rule of judging a particular person.

i always wander why i like kids so much and today i found out that it's because they are simple, cutie and always smiling...

self discipline

i always wondered that why was it that my olahraga club mates always won prizes for every competition and i didn't. at first i thought it might be that they entered the club earlier than me. and this made them to be more experienced and their basis were better. then i realised that i was wrong. it was their endeavour, their self discipline, their willingness to strive to do their best.

it was a few day's ago that i realise my mistake, i was chatting with my friend while leaving the school and he brought up a topic about a class mate of his which was a club mate of mine . he said that she is so 'geng' in her studies. and he mention about her self discipline , which was very good, that although the whole class was so busy talking when there was no teacher in the class, she dint even bordered about her friend and kept on doing her maths or revisions.

my friend said, ' isn't that all the athletic are like that ( which meant very self disciplined)?'

i thought thought of it for a moment then i simply answered him ,'ya'
i was too ashamed to answer him the question, because i as the athletic dint have self discipline as much as they (club mates) do.

i went home and thought of it for a long time. i have done some flashback. finally i found the answer for my failure in both academic and sports. it was me all along, my habit had cost me to pay the price.

from now on, i will be more self disciplined , and know my responsibilities at all times(maybe not all but most of the time.)

P/s: pupils of 5s8 i hoped that you all have the same awakening as i do. work hard to achieve success and leave all regrets behind.

we have one more month to study for our tra-exam
gambate!!!

blessing or curse

sadly or gratefully i pronounced i have been chosen to participate in the next National Service.

it's a blessing or a curse? i wondered...

Hugs!!!

hugs huh?
i like it . it reminds me of my childhood.

for your information, when i was little i always preferred a hug as reward for something i did ratter than a gift or something. i thought that hugs are more meaningful.

when i was a child i always help out in the house chores then mum would ask me what i want or would give me some money as appreciation. not accepting any of that, i suggested to mum that 'why not give me a warm hug and praise me as a good boy, then she is like very cool with it and i rush into her belly. she hugged me and kissed me and say: "Oh! my good boy...what a good boy you are."

and every night i would also hug her and kisses her before i go to bed. oh ya i also hug my dad.

hug, hug, hug...many years have passed now i am already a young adult, yet the habit of hugging doesn't to wear off. now i hug both my parents but less then the past. especially my dad he is now working at perlis and would return home once a week. and that day we hug a lot.

hagging is like the best body language for me. well its odd to practice it publicly in Asia. sadly for the Asia culture sake i think i would not hug in public. so don't worry all of you out there, when you meet me, i would not hug you for sure.

back to my 'early ages' why I'm so in to the 'hugging'. its just because i read an article that talk about grandmother, Rose and her granddaughter,Sam. rose always hug sam during bed-times.
as time flew by, Sam grew up. she feel very humiliated to do so. so as she went to sleep she locked her door so that her grandmother could not come in.

a month went by, every thing was alright until one day when rose was admitted to a hospital because of some 'old-folks-illness'. sam's regretted after her parents told her that rose's old now and she might pass away any time soon and every night rose fear that she would not weak up again to see her granddaughter again and might not be able to say good bye to her precious granddaughter so she hug her every night to make sure no regrets is left by both rose and sam.

after the incident sam learnt her lesson, she even went to rose's bedroom before rose does.
sam hugged rose and rose hugged sam. no regrets would ever form between them...

ya i am so touch after i read it. i decided to hug my parents whenever i have the chance. although they would find it irritating, i continue hugging them for fear i would not be able to hug them one day. till that day i shall not have any regrets of having no chance to show my feelings towards my parents.

mum dad i will always love you, like you love me!!!

live towards perfection

recently i dont know how and also why, my life's getting better and better.i feet as if i am in form two again . no more miserable life for me now.

maybe its my exam results or just that i had been phrased from someone. i fell good every day and every moments.

i could smile again as if my confident towards myself had build up.

hahaha...i would say that i like myself again...ya i should say it out loud

EIK HONG!!!
I LOVE YOU!!!

kiss..kiss..s...s...
haha!!!

fathers day.

today is fathers day!

maybe its because of this father come back from perlis (where currently he works at) (to celebrate with his family.or to spend time with his family.)

i knew it must be the reason that he came back , so this morning i asked him weather in the afternoon where would he want to go. so we decided to go to the water fall at kilim, kedah there for a picnic' although it was a hot day. despite the weather, i focused on the main idea that is to spend time together.i wander if father knows why i decided to go picnic.

yet i still not wish him a happy fathers' day... maybe i will wish him when he goes to bed tonight.

wish me luck. and father : HAPPY FATHERS' DAY!!!

wishes granted! population of good person increase by one

well just got my result for my mid-year-examination. its quite okey really but not very good at all. every subjects were just about the passing mark.

but i should be grateful where many of my classmate didn't pass some of their subs. its as if the Buddha had heard my wishes that is not to disappoint my mun.

thanks to your generosity great Amitabha! i promise i would be a good boy all the time from now on wards.

learning english

recently , i am in the hunger of learning English ,after my friend in USM gave me the inspiration to do so. and then i discover a web site for learning good English .

its http://www.bbclearningenglish.com/

its a good source for English learner. it is both interesting and effective in learning English. it has web cast program ,quizzes, and story books. it is the stage for the global to speak English, write English, use English, and most of all learn English together...

so, why wait, do it now!

p/s: any question? suggestion? please feel free to leave a comment here.
and also if you have any kinds of English learning program or an advice please share it with me..

thanks, happy learning English!!!

PANDA-MAN

have you all ever heard about the MAN WOLF. they say the man wolf was a human before it transformed into the half-beast. it was when the full moon hung in the middle of the clear night sky .

in my case or for most of the students, we would transformed into the PANDA MAN while the exam season strikes. it is an odd phenomena even the most intelligent professor could not make a clue out of it.

arr... i ve to go now i m turning into ... a... PAN.. PAN.....

p/s : any bamboo? i am starving...

regrets of high school

the role of parents doesn't change much since humans civilisation begins. they always do things that they think it might be good for you , but somehow it disappointed you.

i myself have been through that,at first i thought that i wont be the one to undergo it, ya i thought that i was very Lucky, but it ended when i realize the fact that a large piece of me is missing. especially the piece of my high school's life.

in high school people participate actively in curriculum activities and they have most fun form it. when they graduate these thing will become the sweet memory of high school in them. but my mum doesn't want me to participate actively in the activeties to prevent my results from 'rolling down the hills' and so i quit going for my cadet police and my prefect board and join the 'not so active ones' which i don't like

as a result, despite i don't have the sweet memory my result go timbering down the hills. ask me why, the answer is my heart wasn't there.

so there i learnt my lesson , dare to stand up for ureself and don't give up easily just because some one Else's word as well as don't choose some thing just because they are easier,make u more popular but choose the one the u feel like going or doing and that u like it

me the meanie-o-brother

i always thought that i do not have tempter, but i found out i have big tempered.

the issue just took place a few minuets ago when i have a fight with my younger brother over school shoes, stockings and a pail of rain water.

but before this happened, the story began yesterday when i came home from school exhausted, it was raining so i decided to collect rain water form the roof to wash my school shoes and help my brother with his too. i worked so hard to collect the water, then i taught of asking my brother to help me to bring the heavy pails of water from outside into the house as a requite of helping him wash his shoes, but he refuse to help out, i was angry.

the next day the shoes was still wet so my brother bring the shoes out to put them under the sun, all the same was done to the stockings. then he forgot to keep it before the rain poured, the shoes was wet again and the stalking flew over the muddy floor of the garden, my anger grew as he keep searching for the umbrella to keep him away from the rain, then i taught, WHAT THE HACK! this little rain also want an umbrella (actually it was not so small, just my anger had its affect over my mind) then he dump his school shoes into two pails of water that i collect yesterday(i was boiling hot) .

then uncontrollably i shouted at anger , used all my strength to bring up the pails of water pouring down on him .then it began, our fight. in the fight i hit him hard. after the fight i washed my shoes again , then i found out the shoes had been polished, it wasn't me, then who did it? oh it was my brother all along he helped me polish my shoe while he put the shoes under the sun.

And its here's me writing my regrets. i know i that was wrong and i have accepted the fact that i am being hot tempter, over reacted over small things , mean to my brother for all these time ,that i refuse to accept the fact since i was four when my mother has been telling me me since then.

what was done could not be undo. all left to do is to change my attitude. oh my dear brother sorry for all these years. i promise i will change and u will be the first to witness it.

stressed...

feel stressed about :

FINANCIAL PROBLEMS
1. now father has no job
2. my tuition classes need money
3. my piano class needs money
4. my school bus needs money
5. my school wants a lot of money from all the students

fortunately, my mum still has her job. the situation now is still "under control" but now we be very thrifty...

MINE FUTURE n NOW PROBLEMS
1. this year is my last year studying in high school
2. the SPM is coming soon
3. i still have no mood and time to study
4. but i wanna go over seas to study
5. i don't know what subject should i should i choose
6. i don't know what am i wanna going yo be in the future
7. i don't know which path should be taken.

unfortunately, i don't even have a clue about my future... and WHAT AM I DOING NOW!!!

2009,开学啦！！！

啊~开学的第一个星期，一下子就过去了。我今年进的班级是5S8，是理科班的第七班，因为5S6是文科班。

进班上课后，我觉得今年这班很不错。不会像我去年那班一样吵。凭良心说我很很很喜欢今年这班，因为我很很很恨去年那班。去年那班真是‘烂’到难以形容。其实那年班上只不过有几只‘害群烂马’（请恕我滥用成语，我实在是太痛恨他们了）班上就乱个天地颠倒。而且这些烂马很喜欢热老师生气，害得我们不得上课还背着‘坏班’的骂名。

老天爷不公平，已成为事实。那些烂马竟然都进班了，唯有我们这些‘池鱼’退班。

开学的第一天班主任进班，执行它在也是不过的任务了：选班委。老师选了正班长后便要选副的。但是谁也不想当。所以老师便说要看名字璇，他拿起半句名单，看了看，全部人都很担心会被选中。几分钟后，老师便提出人选。Har!!!有没有搞错，班上整整40个人，好选不选偏偏选我，我的名字有那么特别吗？？？那时跟老师争辩下去也是无济于事，我只好认啦！！！

开学一个星期过了。在这一个星期内使我以前到现在的学年，最有效率的一个星期。也许今年我考SPM呱。。。

我的数学补习老师告诉我们：‘看你们下半辈子是喝粥还是吃饭就看你们今年了’。SPM有那么可怕吗？是的！就是那么可怕。

好啦！这个星期要说的也说完了。诸各位SPM考生学业进步，也奉劝高一生不要虚度光阴，真正的努力是从高一开始。。。^.^

NS- nasional servise training

today is the day of the week where parents got to visit their children in the camp ...
for your imformation my cousin,Ah Farn was selected to join the first badge NS training, now she is in undergoing this training...

here are some of the photo that my dad took while visiting her...



What is this place???

Ooo! its kem D' Jelapang (the place where Ah Farn go NS)

Waiting......where are u???

Not here..

Not here...

NO.. Not here...

AH HA!!! Here u r...

Come closer!!!

mum buy KFC for Ah Farn... Look at her, she looks so exited!!!

(maby she is too hungry...>.<)

(Ya I am sure she is hungry!!!)

She starts to eat now...

(look she so 'manja' want people to feed her)

Why look at the camera???

don't worry la! the camera won't eat your chicken one!!!

Better not see u eat... 'nanti' you eat the camera!!!

Eat finish liao a??? no wander look so happy...

...

hey where are u going???

Ooo..just showing around...

ok....

eh...where's here???the place u gather every morning?

har???so fast is good bye liao ar???

good bye hug...

'remember ya...blablablah...'
take care!!!

bye bye!!!see ya.

ya ya... bye bye~~

= =!!!

bye bye camp.. camp... camp apa liao ha???

~THE END OF VISITING~

asrama

ha... today i go school at 9.00am, although it isn't yet school opens, i go there for a club(sudutbudaya) meeting for the preparations of Chinese New Year Celebration in our school one... ha ha during the meeting very funny, i just fool around like a monkey(childish ya :p).

after the meeting my best friend, yi quan and i go to our class(this year) to choose our sits for the year.he told me he will go to his 'asrama' to clean up after this...we choose the front seat ( ha ha we good students la).

there is this other guy named jun wei. he is our friend, he has the same club with yi quan and i ,he also live in the same asrama with yi quan.yi quan and jun wei wants to go to their asrama so i followed them..i also helped them to cleane up...they are very grateful to me lo...'ada udang di sebelah batu' actually there comes a cost for me to help them... that is i can go there to visit them after school anytime i want ..ha ha evil eikhong has something naughty in his mind...

thats all fo to day.. bye~~!!!

TIME FLIES LIKE ALWAYS...

ash.. just think about the 1 & a half month of holidays ,they pass by so quickly ,remembered the targets i have aimed , they haven't been achieve yet. HA HA!!( at least i have study a bit LA!)

new years, new wishes, new hopes...
Last year my results were bad so my class level drooped to the back this year , but it haven't affects me on my dreams to score 10 A1 in SPM.ha ha.

I m very happy and exited because my best friend happens to be in the same class with me, and we could sit together ha ha. flashing back... since i quit from going co-curriculum activity i ve very few friends, and lonely ever since...

happy new year!!!